me and harry potter are like this...

so yesterday was the engagement party. first the two fams had dinner together. i got flowers for the moms and hollie cause i rule. even tho nate is adopted he really looks like his mom. it's weird! then all the mom's friends came over and then hollie's friends all came over. and by over i mean to nate's house. it was a ton of fun. i can't wait to party again in a big hot awesome dress. and i will drink way more, believe you me.

i hate work like i hate wearing tampons. it would be way more fun if i only worked with megan or lisa, but it would still suck to be on my feet all day long. i am really surprised at how there are no jobs. i've got like a million search engines and four applications in and here i am still sitting and hanging out with my thumb up my ass. i also have celery in my tooth but that's kinda unrelated.

josh is coming home on the first. so that'll be fun...hurricane josh..let's make some predictions at what could and probably will happen: he'll discover gold in some rock, he'll get arrested punching a window (oh wait, that already happened), he'll finish his novel, he'll get hit by a car skateboarding, he'll get sick and whine for hours and hours for my mom (that already happened too), he'll get in a big fight with all four of us and make us all feel like shit, he'll beat nate up, he'll call us selfish for wanting to drive the car, he'll punch me in the arm, he'll spin addie around till she gets dizzy and piss me right on off, he'll make me want to do a head roll for 24 hours straight. we shall see. i think i will write down every little weird ass thing he does, from bringing the underwear model over, to dumping a huge pile of dirty laundry in the livingroom. it's going to be a nightmare.

opening three days in a row and going to an engagement party is great because it helps you forget about how you have no friends or money. mike's being a douche bag and hanging out with all these 19 year old lush sluts. richard is getting a tattoo, perhaps even now. i can't wait to see it, seems a bit impulsive, but i have no idea how long he's been thinking this so i'll shut up. andie is still my hero and i can't wait to call robby's wife when she gets back and get together. she's going to hopefully help us become more of who we really are: passionate and not complacent. and not selfish either. that was one thing i noticed about the engagement party that i really loved and want more of: to be less about me. it was all about hollie and nate and i wasn't the center of the universe. it's so nice to forget how your life is mostly a waste and useless, and to remember that there are other things that are way more important. harry potter felt that way a lot. i just felt so happy for hollie and the families that i forgot about how miserable i was not having a job. bring around things that were deeply important made me feel less empty. like it filled me to be less about me. does that make any sense? i'm expectant for a "new" me. i feel like i cant be there until i move on. i'm desperate to be around people who love god and want to change the world. i think once i have that things will be very different. yea!